I was foolish
As foolish as can be
I wore my heart on my sleeve and now I am paying the consequence
I close my eyes as the flashback starts

It started with a IM
She told me to play a prank
So I agreed and IMd you
You had no idea who it was

Eventually you figured it out
We all laughed as we started to talk
I realized that we had a lot in common
Just like she said

I was so happy
After all these years I found someone like me!
After a while of talking to you I realized something
I realized that I felt that I could trust you like I did her

The friend that betrayed my family
We were close but then I lost her
For years I have asked the Lord for someone like her
And I found you

I was so happy
After all these years
I finally found you!
I can finally open up!

And I did just that
I wipe away the tears as the fall down my face
Telling myself it's OK
I tore down that wall

The wall that blocked me from the rest of the world
Since I found you I could destroy it
And open up
Now I just let the tears fall freely, no point in wiping them away

We were getting along great
I was so happy!
I could finally wear my heart on my sleeve
And not worry about it

Soon history repeated itself
Just as I wore my heart on my sleeve for her
My heart was broken
You told me you kissed her

My cousin and not the one you were going out with
I never thought you would do that
I thought I knew you
I thought I found who I was looking for

My tears
They taste like salt
Funny how that works huh?
How I tasted my tears then just as I am now

I know I shouldn't be as hurt as I am
I mean I wasn't the one you did it to
But I can't help but feel hurt
Because I'm going to be in the middle in the end

I'm going to be stuck between a hurt friend
And a hurt cousin
And I don't want to chose
Because I don't want to lose you

Both are so important to me
But in the end I'm going to have to chose one
And I don't want to
Not after I just found you

I tell myself not to worry
I tell myself that everything happens for a reason
And to worry when the time comes
And for now focus on the lesson being taught

I wipe the rest of my tears as I regain my vision
Right now I may be the walking wounded
But I am not the only one
I have no right to be so selfish

I step back into my barrier
Put up my walls
And continue on
Standing by both their sides, helping when I can

I suck up all my pain and wait
I am not the victim
I am merley a citizen that the stray bullet hit
Nothing more, nothing less

So I shall wait and see how this ends
Standing by their sides
Letting them know I am here for both of them
And not losing one or the other

Although I have thought I lost you
The one who was like me
The one I thought God had answered my prayers for
I didn't

I never really knew you to begin with
I just got over excited and jumped in
Way too soon
And now I am paying the consequence

I hope that things work out
And if not that you learn something
And something good comes out of this
Because everything happens for a reason

I have gotten something out of this
I have gotten the knowledge to not jump in so quickly
To not wear my heart on my sleeve so soon
And to not let people in so easily

I wish you the best
And I hope things work out
I open my eyes, letting a single tear fall
As my flashback ends